Faith

 

       A general definition of faith is belief in things for which there is no proof. 
       A definition of faith could also be experienced as a loss of personal control and  will and a complete trust of, and complete surrender into, the absolute knowing that everything is working for good. Because simply, in Truth everything is Good. 

       Faith is to know that when things appear to be falling apart, it is only because something better is coming, and the thing that appears to be falling away is not for the ultimate best and highest.  It is also to discern what one's heart truly desires, is what Life desires, and so a main focus in one's life is to listen deeply to the heart.  In this heart space, even when something appears to be falling apart in the physical plane, there is a knowing that in Spirit nothing ever falls apart, it is only another level seeking to reveal itself. 
        It is standing on the mountaintop knowing with absolute certainly that God's will is done, that Love's will is done, that Life's will is done, and that the mind's limited perception cannot grasp the magnificence and the mysterious ways this magnificence is now coming about.  It is about trusting with everything in you what cannot be seen or felt by the physical senses, but what has always been known by the soul. 
       The conditioned mind's idea of faith is very different. It is asking for specific things, based on what it has been taught to like, and trusting they will materialize.  The soul's idea of faith is bypassing the conditioned mind's perspective completely and trusting in the perfectiong of what is revealed in this moment, being with it completely without judgment or fear, while 'being' in Love.  Neither way is  necesarily ‘better' or ‘worse'.  It would be more accurate to say one is real and the other is illusion materialized through the fantasy of a mind disconnected from the heart.

       After beginning to express creatively and share deeply personal spiritual experiences and insights in a book, as well as to sing and write songs, the appearance and experience of doubt and fear had resurfaced in consciousness with incredible magnitude and intensity over the last several years.  I have felt like a fish out of water in these arenas and the only thing to do was to trust that everything was continuing to work for the highest good.  When the financial area of my life took a downturn due to a delayed investment return, as well as failed investments, the mind wanted to make something wrong, but the soul knew that something deeper was going on and the message kept coming to "let things fall apart."  In the relationship area of my life things began to fall apart in two very important relationships and again the message was to just keep the heart open and to let things fall apart, to sit and to burn in it all.  It was a real cocooning time.  I didn't get out much socially and in that time, in a very large sense, I didn't want ‘help', I didn't want it to be fixed and made better. I wanted Life to organically and naturally be allowed to take it's course and to do it's thing,  even though 'it's thing' at the time seemed to be falling apart at the seams. 

       As I write this now I find myself in an entirely new level of awareness, with a new frame of reference, with a greater confidence and conviction. There is a deeper appreciation and understanding for all that has transpired, along with the awareness of the many, many gifts that have come, and the awareness of the appearance of delays actually being diving timing.  It feels like I am standing on a new foundation and I am reminded again that the answers are always within and it is only my willingness to follow that guidance, no matter what, that I continue to allow the fullness of Life to express through and as me.

       As I was nearing the end of this writing on faith, I thought I would look it up in the dictionary, just to see what it said and to possibly include an "official" definition.  In this particular dictionary, the word faith was the first word defined on that page, and right above that definition, there were two words in bold, signifying the first word and the last word on the page. 
       It read: faith / fall apart. 
       Maybe there's ‘proof' after all. And, maybe, just maybe, this is part of the reason I, and the many of us, have shown up on the earth plane at this time in history.  To "prove" Love.       
      Through a deep surrender, willingness, and the faith of that mustard seed, we are the ones we have waited for, revealing Heaven on Earth.  Revealing the only true power and the only true reality there is: Love.